"Dancing with the Holy Spirit": I want to quit

Monday, September 26, 2011

I want to quit

If there was ever a day I wanted to quit my blog, it would be today.

I'm completely exhausted with this thing.

Is it fair to say with every good thing comes a season when you wrestle with the thoughts of walking away?

I know that's not super spiritual. Sorry.

But sometimes quitting seems a lot easier than pushing through the pain and exhaustion.

Don't worry, I'm probably not gonna quit this blog cause my friends won't let me.
[Plus I'm sure if I did, Conrad would lovingly and sarcastically insult me back to my senses :)].

I know people come here to be encouraged so I'm sorry for being a debbie downer today and for being whinny. Just where I am.

I know I'm blessed. I know I don't have 'perspective' right now.

Maybe I just need a vacation or a nap.

Anyone else feel like they just wanna quit _______?

If so, I hope you have people in your life who won't let you quit cause there's so much at stake.

Quitting is not really an option. You probably already know that. You know you can't walk away from your kids or your church or your job or your passions or your dreams or whatever else is kicking your butt right now.

But that doesn't always make it easier. Sometimes we just need to crawl up in a corner and scream 'I wanna quit'...

Then dust ourselves up and get back to the grind cause His grace is enough.

But if you need some space to anonymously vent or whine about wanting to walk away cause it seems it would be easier, then feel free to let it out in the comments.

What are you tempted to walk away from?

Have you ever felt like you wanted to quit something that was going well?

How do you deal with the temptation to walk away?

3 comments:

ConradSeptember 26, 2011 at 8:45 AM
Ha! You know i was floored when i saw your tweet of this blog post! Whammo!

Insult you back to your senses? Ouch!

How about some encouragement?

You are one of the few sold out people to the Lord that I know of. Seriously. Each tweet and blog post shows that you are someone that knows Jesus, and follows the Spriit of God. We need your revelations from the Lord badly.

Taking a break is one thing, but quitting? I don't remember a retirement clause in scripture anywhere.... hmmm....

Thanks Emma for all you do. Be encouraged and Strengthen yourself in the Lord.

1Sa 30:6 And David was greatly distressed; for the people spake of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and for his daughters: but David encouraged himself in the LORD his God.
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John HilemanSeptember 26, 2011 at 8:53 AM
You are an inspiration, Emma. I have been blessed by many of your Tweets on Twitter. You have a beautiful way with words, and an incredible insight.

Any time I have ever felt like quitting the writing thing, it has been connected to my desire to be successful. It may not be the case with you, but when I simply do what is in front of me-and let God worry about how big it will get-I find I am less burdened. Again, though, that is my own experience.

Grace and Peace
John
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jcarlnelsonOctober 7, 2011 at 12:35 PM
My personal experiences with quitting are mostly about my pride. Usually I'm doing something for the wrong reason. Maybe the right thing, but my ego is fed by the thing I want to quit. Maybe because my ego isn't being fed enough or maybe because I've run into something I don't like. Sometimes its just time to quit hanging onto something whose time is up. I think anyway you cut it some kind of pain makes you really want to quit. I think that's a message to re-evaluate.

Whatever your reason is you do a great job with your blog. I hope its not time for you to quit.
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Emma's Testimony

Ever since I can remember I have always believed that there was a God. I called myself a Christian but I never practiced it. I was “Lukewarm” a little in a little out, a token prayer now and then, went church on Easter like all good Christians do.

However, my life changed forever back in the fall of 2007….

I met the man of my dreams! His name was Bryan, he was larger than life. 6’2 dark brown hair, green eyes, perfect white teeth and the body of an athlete. He swept me off my feet; we loved all the same things. We spent 3 months together having a blast! Vegas weekends, dinner dates, baseball games, weekend trips to the beach. I was falling in love fast!

We were invited to a 2008 New Year’s party by one of his friends. I was so excited, a party! I haven’t been to a real party for years. I bought a new dress, had my hair and nails done. I wanted to look my best. Bryan wore all black; he looked like a rock star. By the time we got to the party it was already in full swing. People were dancing and drinking and having fun.

Bryan headed straight for the bar and started drinking Jack Daniel shots, I had a diet coke, I would be the designated driver for the evening. There were over 50 people there. Bryan and I keep losing ourselves in the crowd. After a couple of hours Bryan was pretty drunk.

I was talking to a man I met there, he was telling me about a ski trip he took to Utah.

That was the last thing I remembered of that evening until I woke up in a hospital 10 days later.

This is what I’ve been told……
Bryan became so jealous to see me talking with this guy that he grabbed me by my hair and dragged me out the front door. Everyone at the party followed to watch as Bryan beat me unconscious on the front lawn. Not one of them tried to stop him. He left me there as he sped off in his truck.

I was rushed straight into emergency surgery to stop a bleed on my brain. The doctor told my brother that 30 minutes into the surgery my heart stopped for 6 minutes. I was put on an induced coma for 10 days.

Like a dream the only thing I remember is what I conceived to be an Angel, the most beautiful being. Surrounded by light. No words were spoken, just a warm love embrace.

It took me several months to fully recover.

Bryan was caught. He was given 6 years and was just denied parole earlier this year.

The only visible scar I carry is a small mark above my right eyebrow; however I carry deep emotional scars of fear and trust. I believe there is a reason God hasn’t healed me from my fear, I believe he will though in his time.

My life has been changed forever! I now have a close relationship with the Lord.

"Oh, that men would give thanks to the LORD for His goodness, And for His wonderful works to the children of men! For He satisfies the longing soul, and fills the hungry soul with goodness." Psalm 107:8-9

"Praise the LORD! Oh, give thanks to the LORD, for He is good! For His mercy endures forever. Who can utter the mighty acts of the LORD? Who can declare all His praise?" Psalm 106:1-2

Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18